Just a few weeks ago I wrote a BLOG entitled “WHO Is Your Motivation?”. In it, I attempted to deal with the issues of “WHY” we do what we do in life (and especially in our spiritual walk). Are we out to please MAN or are we moving to please GOD?
Let me tell you something I have learned in my 26 years of this walk of faith (and almost 20 in full-time ministry): Either we will preach, teach, or write from our experience / OR / we experience what we preach, teach, or write.
When I wrote that blog a few weeks ago, I felt in my heart I had all that under control. I wasn’t doing what I do to please man. I am God’s man. Well, it was a SETUP. LOL. Yes, that’s right, I was set up. I was tested on what I wrote.
I posted the previously mentioned BLOG about three weeks ago. A week later this “spirit of fear” started messing with my mind. I had ridiculous garbage bombarding my thoughts. This was so typically OUT OF THE BLUE and so UNtypical of my normal mode of thought. I had intimidating, mental verbiages threatening me: “Don’t rock the boat – you have a good thing going on here. Don’t do something too far out there. Don’t do anything too radical or extreme.”
And then, IT happened. The Holy Spirit began doing some radical surgery in my inner man. After several days of this work marinating in my soul and spirit, I sensed the Holy Spirit dealing with me to share this word with Crossroads (where I am the Senior Pastor) and with the body of Christ at large in America.
Here is the problem. This was a very HARD word. It was a call to repentance. It was a call to “anguish” over the sins in our land. It was a call to accountability in the body of Christ for our lackadaisical attitude for the shape of our nation. It was a “WAKE UP CALL” from Heaven. Personally, it came out of three hours of delving into Psalms 51 and followed by days of prayer, weeping, repentance, and crying out to the heart of God.
Now, you may say, “I don’t see a problem with that Pastor Tim.” Okay. Let me remind you of something. Remember there were masses following Jesus? Remember how He fed 5,000 with a few loaves and fishes? As long as He was doing miracles for them and feeding them, they flocked and followed Jesus anywhere. Many of those claimed to be His “disciples.” One day, Jesus drew a line. He gave a “HARD WORD” when He said, “You have to eat my flesh and drink my blood.” The response? Here are the words of John, “From that time many of His disciples went back and walked with Him no more” (John 6:66, NKJV).
Jesus brought a HARD WORD and had NEGATIVE church growth.
So, where did that leave me? At our Wednesday Bible Study, I broke from my normal series and started a message entitled: “The Guilty Crying Out For Innocence.” That may not sound too difficult – that is – until we get to the meat of the matter: WE ARE ALL GUILTY. The gospel of Christ is powerful in us because it is the ONLY way to find forgiveness. That Wednesday was heavy. And, I was nice enough to warn everyone that I would speak on this matter again the following Sunday.
Sunday comes around. And, as only God could work it – we had the largest attendance for a regular (non big event) Sunday. Nearly 200 in attendance. GREAT! All these people and I’m on assignment to lower the boom to a sinful nation guilty of innocent blood. And, if the nation is guilty, we are all guilty! As Nehemiah and Daniel prayed: “Forgive us of the sins of our fathers, our own sins, and the sins of us as a people.”
I was on assignment. For three days my heart was heavy. I had to wrestle with this. Was I afraid? YES! I was scared stiff!
Yet, my fear was not how the congregation would react to my depictions of the sins of our nations and that our lack of prayer and passion for Christ has covered our hands in blood. The devil lost that “fear” battle. My fear was of that which comes from the presence of a HOLY GOD! I knew that if I did not deliver that word from God I would be accountable to HIM and HIM ALONE!
I will conclude this BLOG with this fact: THE FEAR OF THE LORD IS REAL! Yes, we are the “friends of God” and He loves us and He is our Father. Yet, too often in our American “CHURCHianity” we have downgraded the immense holiness of God to “just God.” No beloved. The anthem of Heaven is: “Holy, Holy, Holy is the Lord God Almighty….” We have heard the word “HOLY” in church so much and we have no clue what “HOLY” even means. It means, “Other AND Separate.” There is NONE other like HIM.
Child of God, we serve a HOLY God. Yes, we come “boldly by the blood” (Hebrews 10:19), but when we have a revelation of WHO He is we come trembling. John saw Him in the book of the Revelation and literally fainted (Revelation 1:17).
May we have a fresh revelation of the HOLY ONE and live under the fear of the Lord with great reverence that is due Him.
I don’t want to miss His will. I don’t want to displease Him. To do either has me “scared stiff.” I pray the FEAR of the Lord be renewed to His church and that, in turn, would move us to accomplish His purposes in us.